In my defence... I don’t really care anymore.

The last few months have made me think a lot more than I ever wanted to. I hope the exercise has not been futile. .
It has made me take a step back and evaluate myself as an individual against the backdrop of my life. To determine my basic understanding of what differentiates right from wrong, good from evil and more importantly which side did I eventually fall upon . That is, If I cared any longer to judge the same.
Lived enough for others, it’s my time now. .
This is by no means an effort to validate my thoughts or my actions. Just a bunch of points I’ve held sacred for quite some time now. And more importantly how, they’ve shaped me as an individual . .

It’s k to be stupid at times, maybe all the time. At least being stupid comes from your heart. Not your head.Serves no purpose than to make you feel good. It’s your life. Whatever makes you tick.
It’s alright to act like a kid. Growing up sucks anyway. . Moreover, the innocence of childhood is lost on our generation. So every time you feel like being a kid, I think you are entitled to that J
It’s k to bawl your guts out when it hurts. It always ends up making u feel better.
It’s k to cry in the presence of other people. Sure as hell beats crying all by yourself.
It’s k to have people laugh at you. Even better if you can laugh with them.
It’s k to want a shoulder to cry on. Even better if you can provide one when needed..
It’s k to want to get educated some more. Even better if you are doing it for the right reasons.
It’s k to want to learn new things . It’s a progressive discovery of one’s own ignorance.
It’s k to splurge every once in a while. Even better if it’s your own money .
Best- if you’ve worked really really hard for it. Nothing’s more sweeter than the fruit of one’s own labour. .
It’s alright to spend sometime on yourself. No, it does not make you a narcissist. At most, you’ll fall in love with your own self. And that, can only be a good thing .
It’s k to spend a few hours doing nothing. Laze in bed. Lost in thoughts .U deserve it.
It’s k to sit up late in the night, trying to get the work done before the deadline . You’ve earned that too
It’s alright to find a soul mate even if you can’t be with them for the rest of your life. You’re lucky enough just to have found one.
It’s alright to help someone without expecting anything in return. . Karma always works. Better still , it will always ends up making u feel better.
It’s k to love someone more than yourself without expecting them ever to love you back. Looks like you finally understand what love is all about.
It’s k to judge people. Just none too harshly.
It’s k to be judged by people . The only opinion that counts is yours anyway.

It’s k to be afraid. It’s k to doubt yourself. It’s k to be alone. It is what you are for most of your life.
Even better if u experience all of these together; it’s a sign you’re growing up. Anything that hurts you, only leaves you a stronger . Yes it changes you. But only for the better. . You may not see it now, but sometime in the future you will be thankful about every single thing that happened to your in this life. No matter how good or bad it was.

It’s k to feel invincible. Immortal even. . Remember how that feels.
It’s k to feel helpless and lost. . It won’t last forever.

Just remember -you are but a candle, that will go off at dawn.
So until then; Keep shining. .
Shine bright, shine strong,
Spread the joy, all along.